I listened yesterday as the kids from our Vacation Bible School led us in worship yesterday. I always love watching kids as they worship because they do it without any inhibitions. It is reckless. It is carefree. It is wholehearted. It is what I am supposed to be. Then they came to the chorus for one of their VBS songs this year. I don’t remember much of it but I do remember this phrase, “There has never been a love so amazing.”
The words jumped off of the screen. For a minute there, I forgot it was the kids singing and felt like it was the Holy Spirit whispering in my ear (not that the two couldn’t be the same). There truly has been no love to compare with what Christ did for me. I needed to be reminded of that. Amidst the overwhelming feeling of beginning a new ministry, paying bills that seem to grow by the day, planning for the future of four kids and a wife and praying for wisdom on how to take care of an aging parent, I had started to depend very heavily on the source I know best and can trust the least…me. What I needed yesterday, and every day, is not more of me but more of a powerful God who is capable of amazing love.
The problems in our lives aren’t new. They are as old as the dirt we walk on. Some days they seem more intense, more unstoppable. We can feel like the weight of the world is on our shoulders. I believe those are the days that we stop being amazed by God. If God started the whole universe spinning with a few words and some commands, can’t I trust that He can start this ministry the way that He chooses and it can’t be stopped? If God holds the wealth of the universe in His hands, can’t I trust that He knows how to balance my checkbook and pay my bills? And, no matter how deeply I love my mom, He loves her more intensely with this amazing love the kids sang about. I simply have to trust Him and follow where He is taking me.
The problem isn’t my problems. The problem is me. I get too confident in myself and forget the One who brought me this far. I think too highly of me and too low of Him. With each new day, I have to be reminded that the promises of God’s Word to me are more true today than they ever were. I can be amazed by that and rest confidently knowing that He still loves me and draws me with this amazing love.